before chinese new year pass me by,
want to wish u guys out there,
Gong Xi Fa Chai !!
simply, Happy Chinese New Year....
take care,
Adrian
Tuesday, February 09, 2010
Sunday, January 31, 2010
remembering the good times
when i feel like giving up in medicine, this reminds me all the reasons why i want to do it so badly.
have a good fun, and enjoy the video.
have a good fun, and enjoy the video.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
Grass is always greener on the other side
ive been stucked up in Oldham, a small district in manch.
such a depressive place, altho it is definitely a brilliant place in terms of education, plenty of teaching.
the lonely and depressive bit of a district hospital has made me to question myself do i really like medicine.
good thing, it is not just me alone who felt that, my friend placed there is starting to think so too.
i realized i came to med school to get into surgery. i did find medicine fascinating and interesting for the past 3 years. but now, things are getting mundane and infinite work for not much reward.
things was turning excellent for me, my extra effort in neurosurg was paying off, career path seemed certain and getting more assured. still passionate and love neurosurg.
but cant wait to get out of med school and this overly "safe and predictable" path in the medical ladder.
been talking to so many ppl, i believe grass is always greener on the other side. when you realize you can achieve what you want to do and things get mundane, you always wonder what is life on the other road not taken.
why didnt i just do dentistry, then orthodontics, earn easy and loads of money, rest on my laurel and retire early in like mid 30s...
i am neither a a god-complex nor rubic cube personified. i chose this path, (not what i said in my interview), because in my hospital placement i thought surgery was very interesting.
and general dentistry was alright, orthodontics was boring. but the defining moment, i believe, was when i sat in a session of physiotherapy with this kid.
he was a small boy with cerebral palsy. physically weak, couldnt even grip with his hands, slurred and droopy mouth, standing up was an ordeal.
I thought to myself, "i believe people like him need a helping hand. if not us, who else"
if only, i walked away and chose the easy life.
grass is always greener on the other side.
ACT Lim
such a depressive place, altho it is definitely a brilliant place in terms of education, plenty of teaching.
the lonely and depressive bit of a district hospital has made me to question myself do i really like medicine.
good thing, it is not just me alone who felt that, my friend placed there is starting to think so too.
i realized i came to med school to get into surgery. i did find medicine fascinating and interesting for the past 3 years. but now, things are getting mundane and infinite work for not much reward.
things was turning excellent for me, my extra effort in neurosurg was paying off, career path seemed certain and getting more assured. still passionate and love neurosurg.
but cant wait to get out of med school and this overly "safe and predictable" path in the medical ladder.
been talking to so many ppl, i believe grass is always greener on the other side. when you realize you can achieve what you want to do and things get mundane, you always wonder what is life on the other road not taken.
why didnt i just do dentistry, then orthodontics, earn easy and loads of money, rest on my laurel and retire early in like mid 30s...
i am neither a a god-complex nor rubic cube personified. i chose this path, (not what i said in my interview), because in my hospital placement i thought surgery was very interesting.
and general dentistry was alright, orthodontics was boring. but the defining moment, i believe, was when i sat in a session of physiotherapy with this kid.
he was a small boy with cerebral palsy. physically weak, couldnt even grip with his hands, slurred and droopy mouth, standing up was an ordeal.
I thought to myself, "i believe people like him need a helping hand. if not us, who else"
if only, i walked away and chose the easy life.
grass is always greener on the other side.
ACT Lim
Friday, January 01, 2010
Merry Christmas and Happy New Year
I quote my friend, "everyone looks forward to new year with their old habits"
I am late to wish this, nonetheless, a belated Christmas and a Happy New Year to you guys out there.
Truly, I wish everyone a year that will be exciting and interesting ahead. Forget the economy, forget all the wars....lets live our life to the best we can.
as i hold strongly to the saying, "Fortune favours the courage"
Looking back, 2009 was a full of downs, but the few ups I had were the best in my life.
Year 2009 is the defining year in my life. a year which sealed my true passion for neurosurgery. the year which i have ended my battle to convince my dad that this is the life i want. at times, i was so stressed out that i wont make it but im gradually seeing the light now.
I sincerely wish that everyone of you out there, if you ever struggle, to keep fighting and persist in pursuing your dreams.
One day, you will see your rewards. To some people, that reward maybe quick, to others, it will take a long while. Every effort you make, you will learn, one way or another. you will achieve it at the end.
best wishes,
ACT Lim
I am late to wish this, nonetheless, a belated Christmas and a Happy New Year to you guys out there.
Truly, I wish everyone a year that will be exciting and interesting ahead. Forget the economy, forget all the wars....lets live our life to the best we can.
as i hold strongly to the saying, "Fortune favours the courage"
Looking back, 2009 was a full of downs, but the few ups I had were the best in my life.
Year 2009 is the defining year in my life. a year which sealed my true passion for neurosurgery. the year which i have ended my battle to convince my dad that this is the life i want. at times, i was so stressed out that i wont make it but im gradually seeing the light now.
I sincerely wish that everyone of you out there, if you ever struggle, to keep fighting and persist in pursuing your dreams.
One day, you will see your rewards. To some people, that reward maybe quick, to others, it will take a long while. Every effort you make, you will learn, one way or another. you will achieve it at the end.
best wishes,
ACT Lim
Friday, December 18, 2009
Facebook Scammed
I got a call this afternoon, my sister was told by a friend that I was robbed in London while i was in Manchester.
After finding out what happened, apparently my facebook account was scammed/hacked by someone. My email ownership was changed to one random email and my password was changed.
The scam was so believable coz the hacker used my account to chat with my other friends asking for money to be sent to a bank. 2 of my friends tried to contact me, one through my sis, the other thru josh.
Within 2 hours, i changed everything and even shut down my facebook account.
I didnt have a choice, i either risk cheating my friends inadvertently or my other details get hacked.
So, seems like im going to starve and desert myself from facebook...till God knows. i wonder if my friend list and pictures are still up there. will be a pity to lose everything
donno if i can reactivate it or not in the first place. well, look at the bright side, i wont be wasting time on facebook.
guys and gals be careful
After finding out what happened, apparently my facebook account was scammed/hacked by someone. My email ownership was changed to one random email and my password was changed.
The scam was so believable coz the hacker used my account to chat with my other friends asking for money to be sent to a bank. 2 of my friends tried to contact me, one through my sis, the other thru josh.
Within 2 hours, i changed everything and even shut down my facebook account.
I didnt have a choice, i either risk cheating my friends inadvertently or my other details get hacked.
So, seems like im going to starve and desert myself from facebook...till God knows. i wonder if my friend list and pictures are still up there. will be a pity to lose everything
donno if i can reactivate it or not in the first place. well, look at the bright side, i wont be wasting time on facebook.
guys and gals be careful
Thursday, December 03, 2009
the day i have been waiting for
today, what i had was not that special, simple but interesting things, looking at MR, CT scans of the brain. subdural, SAH, PCA infarction and so forth.
but it was the day i have been waiting for.
finally, my dad is happy for me to do neurosurgery. Not just that, he has encouraged me to do Mres and the path I have chosen thus far.
i have not been talking to my dad for the past 2 months. i was dreading this conversation. but it turned out my father has opened up and could now see the potential and my true passion for neurosurgery.
it feels weird, the thought of your father's approval yet nothing different which occured changed a lot. i felt this sudden relieve and elevation.
i dont quite believe in destiny or luck at times, but i guess probably this is my destiny.
my cousin had a rather rare traumatic event lately, haemorrhagic stroke from an arterio-venous malformation (AVM) which required neurosurgical intervention, neuroradiological treatment and stroke rehab. It wasnt miraculously because there was no need of any divine intervention. she recovered with minimal neurological deficit besides confusion.
that unusual incident opened up my dad's tunnel vision. he could see the importance and the rarity of neurosurgeons. how vital is even a neuroradiologist and stroke rehab.
that pretty much sums up my life now. deep down, i always felt this was the specialty meant for me. the one and only specialty i fell in love with.
and now that im following the 2 success stories of neurosurgical trainees that i know, i am comfortable and certain neurosurgery is what i will end up doing one day.
Project Option is sorted out with my consultant, a mentor to me. Mres is also sorted out with a group i have been aiming for to the extent that i had to go down London to meet this Prof from Manchester. SSC seems exciting and interesting, well, in the morning during ward rounds.
i felt so lonely today when i woke up this morning, but now i can rest assured my dad is behind me.
A.C.T. Lim
but it was the day i have been waiting for.
finally, my dad is happy for me to do neurosurgery. Not just that, he has encouraged me to do Mres and the path I have chosen thus far.
i have not been talking to my dad for the past 2 months. i was dreading this conversation. but it turned out my father has opened up and could now see the potential and my true passion for neurosurgery.
it feels weird, the thought of your father's approval yet nothing different which occured changed a lot. i felt this sudden relieve and elevation.
i dont quite believe in destiny or luck at times, but i guess probably this is my destiny.
my cousin had a rather rare traumatic event lately, haemorrhagic stroke from an arterio-venous malformation (AVM) which required neurosurgical intervention, neuroradiological treatment and stroke rehab. It wasnt miraculously because there was no need of any divine intervention. she recovered with minimal neurological deficit besides confusion.
that unusual incident opened up my dad's tunnel vision. he could see the importance and the rarity of neurosurgeons. how vital is even a neuroradiologist and stroke rehab.
that pretty much sums up my life now. deep down, i always felt this was the specialty meant for me. the one and only specialty i fell in love with.
and now that im following the 2 success stories of neurosurgical trainees that i know, i am comfortable and certain neurosurgery is what i will end up doing one day.
Project Option is sorted out with my consultant, a mentor to me. Mres is also sorted out with a group i have been aiming for to the extent that i had to go down London to meet this Prof from Manchester. SSC seems exciting and interesting, well, in the morning during ward rounds.
i felt so lonely today when i woke up this morning, but now i can rest assured my dad is behind me.
A.C.T. Lim
Saturday, November 28, 2009
WOOOHOOOO !!!!
osce is finished for this semester....
donno if i did it right or wrong, some stations were so ambigous. i was confident with a few stations but people attempted differently. i really hope i didnt bust it up big time.
cant be bothered now, whatever it is........
TIME TO RELAX AND HAVE FUN.....
wooo hoooo.....ha aha..haaa....eee ahhh ahhahahhhahaha
donno if i did it right or wrong, some stations were so ambigous. i was confident with a few stations but people attempted differently. i really hope i didnt bust it up big time.
cant be bothered now, whatever it is........
TIME TO RELAX AND HAVE FUN.....
wooo hoooo.....ha aha..haaa....eee ahhh ahhahahhhahaha
Monday, November 23, 2009
Come on
COME ON !!!!! few more days....after that u can flap your wings...
blardy hell, i realized my hairline has gone up recently.....i think i have never been much more stress and disappointment than now.
no excuse, still work to be done
after that, karaoke, hotpot, chilling out, london, or whatever....anything but medicine
blardy hell, i realized my hairline has gone up recently.....i think i have never been much more stress and disappointment than now.
no excuse, still work to be done
after that, karaoke, hotpot, chilling out, london, or whatever....anything but medicine
Thursday, November 19, 2009
Happy
trying to
my feedback from mock osce on the poorer stations, i know the facts but i dont seem to have the confidence in myself
some stations i could do really well, scoring 6s out of 7, a few stations when i doubted myself, my confidence was not there to pull me through unlike usual days.
i feel like ive just been beaten down all this days of my life. dream to do neurosurgery, no you cant. try hard and effortlessly explaining the prospect of it. dont believe you. kinda reflects into my consultation with patients. i try to explain to simulated patients, if they are stubborn, i give up.
happy....i am trying to be
my feedback from mock osce on the poorer stations, i know the facts but i dont seem to have the confidence in myself
some stations i could do really well, scoring 6s out of 7, a few stations when i doubted myself, my confidence was not there to pull me through unlike usual days.
i feel like ive just been beaten down all this days of my life. dream to do neurosurgery, no you cant. try hard and effortlessly explaining the prospect of it. dont believe you. kinda reflects into my consultation with patients. i try to explain to simulated patients, if they are stubborn, i give up.
happy....i am trying to be
Sunday, November 08, 2009
even more dilemma
if you are on a toll of low mood, just dont read this, as it is even more saddening.
the other day, i was looking through on facebook, pictures of my family gathering, uncles and aunties which my cousin uploaded.
i saw a few pictures of my dad, i felt really bad, he is usually either in a serious mood or very loud voicing his opinion. this time, he was just looking aimlessly, not focussing on the camera.
when i looked at him like that, i felt really sad and bad because i think i must have made him disappointed as a father to see his son not wanting to talk to his dad for nearly a month now.
according to jon, he has been asking around about neurosurgery. i think i have let him down as a son. i probably should listen to what he wants me to do. after all, all his hardwork has been so that i could get this far. i am slowly trying to accept that im not meant to do neurosurgery. i am slowly trying to pick myself up from this feeling of being lost. i believe he wishes me well and doesnt deserve to go through so much more hardwork to let me study over here.
the other day was my mother's bday. i called her on my phone which i have never done because i normally do it online. i wished her and ask how was she and so forth. my mum asked me why i sounded stammering, i just said it was the line probably but in truth i was crying talking to my mum. i dont know why.
i think this is the problem with my personality, i think i am like the great i am and tries to hard, too ambitious, too foolish, and everything else. maybe my dad is right, i should just do what everybody else does.
at least i dreamed and i tried, i gave my lot and best. i just got to pick myself up one day again.
on the contrary to what i appear to my friends, the jolly o' adrian, deep down this is my struggle and will be forever my struggle. my father has always been like that to me from a very young age and i think i am starting to give up, not on my father but on myself.
the other day, i was looking through on facebook, pictures of my family gathering, uncles and aunties which my cousin uploaded.
i saw a few pictures of my dad, i felt really bad, he is usually either in a serious mood or very loud voicing his opinion. this time, he was just looking aimlessly, not focussing on the camera.
when i looked at him like that, i felt really sad and bad because i think i must have made him disappointed as a father to see his son not wanting to talk to his dad for nearly a month now.
according to jon, he has been asking around about neurosurgery. i think i have let him down as a son. i probably should listen to what he wants me to do. after all, all his hardwork has been so that i could get this far. i am slowly trying to accept that im not meant to do neurosurgery. i am slowly trying to pick myself up from this feeling of being lost. i believe he wishes me well and doesnt deserve to go through so much more hardwork to let me study over here.
the other day was my mother's bday. i called her on my phone which i have never done because i normally do it online. i wished her and ask how was she and so forth. my mum asked me why i sounded stammering, i just said it was the line probably but in truth i was crying talking to my mum. i dont know why.
i think this is the problem with my personality, i think i am like the great i am and tries to hard, too ambitious, too foolish, and everything else. maybe my dad is right, i should just do what everybody else does.
at least i dreamed and i tried, i gave my lot and best. i just got to pick myself up one day again.
on the contrary to what i appear to my friends, the jolly o' adrian, deep down this is my struggle and will be forever my struggle. my father has always been like that to me from a very young age and i think i am starting to give up, not on my father but on myself.
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